“The Way I Used to Be” by Amber Smith is a gripping and emotionally raw young adult novel that delves into the aftermath of sexual assault and its profound impact on the survivor. Published in 2016, this novel follows the journey of Eden McCrorey, a high school student whose life is forever changed by a traumatic event.
The story begins with Eden’s idyllic childhood and her close relationship with her brother’s best friend, Kevin. However, one fateful night, Kevin rapes Eden, shattering her sense of security and trust. Unable to confide in anyone about the assault, Eden grapples with overwhelming feelings of shame, guilt, and confusion.
As the years pass, Eden’s life spirals out of control as she tries to cope with the trauma in unhealthy ways. The novel chronicles her struggles with self-destructive behavior, strained relationships, and the overwhelming weight of her secret. Through Eden’s journey, Amber Smith offers a raw and unflinching exploration of the long-term effects of sexual assault and the challenges of healing and recovery.
“The Way I Used to Be” is a powerful and thought-provoking read that sheds light on the often-silenced experiences of survivors of sexual violence. With its honest portrayal of trauma, resilience, and the complexities of healing, the novel resonates with readers and sparks important conversations about consent, trauma, and the importance of supporting survivors.
Amber Smith’s compelling narrative and authentic characters make “The Way I Used to Be” a poignant and unforgettable novel that leaves a lasting impact on its readers. It is a must-read for young adults and anyone seeking to understand the profound effects of sexual assault on survivors.
